Last December, I vowed to make my 65th year “the best year ever”. I wrote those words in my journal. I promised to get fit. To work less. To start a blog. To spend more time on the important things. I did start the blog.

Well, today, I’m one year older. And no, it wasn’t the best year ever, was it? I lost a lot. I lost my husband, my sister and my dog. And as I sit here, wondering what will come next, I think of you, my dear, sweet E.

I watched you as you sat in your chair and read your Bible. I heard you quietly singing the Lord’s Prayer as you lay in bed. I watched as you whispered an admonition to a photograph of Uncle D on the wall, and threw him a kiss and a smile. Those early mornings, as you sat bundled up in your sweater, watching cartoons in the dark living room. I heard you whisper sweet nothings to the birds in the yard. I get it.

You told me, that weekend, “Get rid of it all, Sue. I don’t hold on to material things.” As we prepared you for your big move across country, I wasn’t sure that I understood and I worried that you would miss all your treasures, collected over years of life and love with Uncle D. Well I get it. They mean absolutely nothing, don’t they?

So one ponders on the threshold of a new year. What is it, exactly, that I am left with. What would I pack, were I about to embark on a brand new life?

My cup of coffee warms my hands, as I stare out at the frosty morning, the first day of the rest of my life. Two sleepy cats sit along side, and we watch the world wake up.  I make a mental list. This is great, actually, because I realize I, too, won’t require any luggage for what I would pack, and that’s going to make it easier all the way around!

  •  My love of life, of nature’s wonders.
  • My memories.
  • The knowledge that there are more memories to be made.
  • The humor in it all.
  • My love for my children and grandchildren, and the hope and inspiration they embody.
  • My faith, for it comforts and sustains me and without it, my life would truly have little meaning.

Thank you, E. You have taught me so much. You have enriched my life and I thank God for you. Feel the warmth of my long distance love today. Let’s celebrate life! I look forward to what each new day will bring!


About susansplace

Widowed in 2012, I am a mother and grandmother. Born in San Francisco, I now live in the town I grew up in: Mill Valley, California. I love nature photography. Just an amateur but that's OK! My goal: world peace. Got any ideas?
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2 Responses to Believe!

  1. Lynn says:

    Beautiful, Sue!

  2. Noreene says:

    Happy Birthday! Sue. May you have a blessed 2013.

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